Aimless Writing

Kinda of feeling tired nowadays... Doesn't seem to have any drive to do anything. Maybe it's all the news that's coming in... People less qualified than you, but receive treatment that's on par with you. How would you feel? Life's unfair right? of cos it is. Mum will tell you to look at your fingers - none of them is of equal length.

The only thing that I'm happy is when I received the notice that I got admitted to ISS. But the happiness is short-lived. 3 people applied, 2 got in... But AMSpore rejected the offer. And so I'm the only one left. Not that easy to get in though, so maybe that's why I still continue to carry on. Hopefully, life will become more enriched and learn more things that I'm not able to do so now. Got people say I should go for certs instead of master... Some say this paper is worthless... 2.5 years is a long time... Will I still be where I'm am by that time? I don't know. Environment good, boss good.. but is that sufficient? It all bottoms down to what one wants in life... I'm not very ambitious, but at least expect to be treated fairly. But guess only if I live in fairyland...

Maybe if I didn't get that place, I can be more carefree.... Going around the various kingdoms... People leaving here and there often set me wondering what am I doing...

Words are cheap (maybe FOC), actions are rare. When someone says "I want everyone to be xxx", but the policies don't really make us xxx.... "I can help you guys to get things done quickly, scanned it and email to you" came from her mouth. But by the time, things reaches you, the eggs would have hatched. Lots of things seem to be solely PR. NATO is the word. Sincerity came from the depth of one's heart, not the mouth... Privileges should be extended to all and not just a group of people. Biased practice will only set to alienate those who bring in the bread and butter. Don't forget, it's because of them and that's why you are here. Put yourself in their shoes. How would you feel? People high up look at the overall picture, but should still have grassroot sense. Understand the ground. Ever wonder why people are rushing out of the gate? Do not treat it as a norm even if it's happening for decades... Humans hate changes and uncertainties. If not for the push factors, who would want to battle with the wild...

Last Thursday, HF said something which really made my day. Never know that she thinks so highly of me LOL... cos it really surprised me as I don't even think that I'm good at all... Wonder how she had that impression as we had never did any CS module before...

Oh dear... why am I writing all these rubbish? Even I also do not know... No links between sentences... Heart flows like water.. aimlessly everywhere...